This post has been sitting in my drafts for weeks now but I am ready to share it.
Let me give you a little back story first...
Back in June I was scrolling thru Indeed looking at the different job postings in my area. I wasn't seriously looking for work but decided to give a few interesting jobs more attention. I applied to a few job postings and the next day I got a response and the day after that I found myself in an interview. I left the interview so excited and wanting this job because it had been the best interview I had ever had!
Fast forward to when this post was written...the night before my first day!
My girls are asleep and I am incredibly nervous for what tomorrow will bring! You see tomorrow is my first day of work. I have not worked in several years. Completely devoting my time to my girls and husband.
I am pretty much feeling every emotion possible.
One moment I am so excited and then I feel tremendous amounts of guilt.
I will be pretty much be working all week for 4-6 hours a day. The schedule itself is not bad at all, its actually one of the reasons I accepted the job.
However, it means that my hubby will be watching the kiddos for a portion of the day and when school starts I won't be at pick up.
Enter mom guilt!
As excited as I am for myself and the opportunities this job will give me.
I am also experiencing mom guilt to the max.
How will this affect my girls?
Will they miss me?
Will I miss them even more?
Will my husband be able to watch them and work at the same time when I am away?
Will I miss a lot of school events and will that scar my kid for life?
I wrote pros and cons lists and to be honest they left me more confused.
But what I do know is that I am doing this for my girls, they are my WHY.
It all boils down to them.
I want this job and mentally feel like I need this job.
I need time to myself and making money at the same time doesn't hurt one bit.
Tomorrow is a big day for all of us and now I really need to get to bed!
xoxo
Jocelyn